why am i in school? i don't like doing homework. i don't like sitting on my ass all day in the computer lab tyring to find sources for a stupid paper that i don't want to write and that is due next monday. the same day as the exam. baH! there really is no point to this, i'm just a little frustrated and needing a break from staring at rows and rows of journal articles in a database. ugh. why am i in school? right. education=job i actually want.

but it seems like i'm right where i always have been.

saturday i ran into an old friend, he just appeared out of nowhere and we were very excited to see each other. it's been maybe three weeks since we last hung out, even then, it was a big gathering with lots of mingling. so he suggests that we get together that weekend while i was visiting my parents, it was his weekend off, so he had plenty of time, and his girlfriend didn't have to work too early on sunday. being the lazy idiot that i am, and being tired after spending hte day with my parents, said, sure, i''ll give you a call maybe later tonight. go home. take a nap. a long nap. wake up, do some more stuff around the house. get bored around 8 pm, so i call him up to see what's going on, and i am assured that they're just hanging out and are probably going out again later, so he'll call me when they do. and he checks to make sure he has the right number. he does. hours pass. and i never hear back. this happens to me ALL the time.

and you wonder why i'm often accused of being a hermit! it's because people keep bailing on me! of course i'm going to be paranoid that no one wants to do anything with me, because that's what it sure as hell looks like.

not to mention, this same friend bailed on me for thanksgiving when we were supposed to go visit another friend in minnesota. thanks, dude. you're always there for me.

what a happy first entry!

well i have the whole thing set up but can't find time to actually get to the good stuff. coming soon.